Wednesday, May 15, 2013

God and Money

Can I ask God for money?
Well I suppose I can always ask. I've asked for allot of things over the years. Asking for things doesn't work very well and it makes me uncomfortable, it seems mean. Nearly everyone on this earth could use more money asking God for that seems small. God is for bigger things.
The other trouble with asking God for money is the risk, what if I don't get it. That is  the problem with prayer. When I pray for understanding or fearlessness, the response it immediate. Just the thought of praying for it brings it along in bucket loads.
The turnaround time for objects is much longer. Perhaps the trends of time in  the material world have a certain momentum,  it takes awhile to turn the semi truck trailer  that is my life,and to get it going in a different direction.
I have learned though, that I have to ask. It's not about whether God knows what's happening, It's about whether I'm interested in doing something different.
It can't hurt to ask.
Well actually it can.
Like when I empty my whole soul into a prayer and then nothing happens and I am crushed.  But something always happens from it, just not always right away.
When I pray like that I only need to do it once. I hear back and then I wait and see.  A yes from God can mean allot of things. No's are good too, at least I know where I am at, no more wondering. God says no, then don't even try it.
I find I pray reflexively when I'm scared. I'll find myself saying a line from the Hail Mary over and over without even listening to it. I'm not sure if that is really prayer. But then in some way every thought has to be.

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